英语过关的请进来。请帮我把这篇日记翻译成英语。非常感谢谢谢了

Seem to have a long time diaries, from this point can prove himself become more and more lazy. May is tired, exhaustion of body and mind.
18 years old later I always feel like a redundant. In the real life will also aloof. I am accustomed to the people around the eye with strange at me! Now, I have already become accustomed to the taste of forgotten, most of the time I like a quiet half stunned. Some people think I'm proud that I despise the people around. I actually introverted than anybody loneliness, kind, honest and tolerant. But no one to understand me, but I don't need.
I've been 20 years before playing a long-term good man! Never smoking, drinking, gambling. Always have clean and pure mind. But facts have proved I was actually had a timid very failure, before I hear comments from others. When it did so without my peers basic of...
21 years old, I am in a more open entertainment city work. I know that my personality is not fit to where the work, because it is your cousin store, so had to settle for her promise to help. Where all let me feel dirty. Finally let I met humans is a note of hypocrisy. Naturally I have become the focus of where people, because they have never seen as I so stuffy, childish. Still remembered a girl asked me: hi, you won't, still a virgin. I think she actually speechless, dare to ask. She said if who marry you should be very happy. I had to smile perfunctory... Maybe I was really too honesty?!
After a long time, actually, I think I'll really, too bad. Now, I finally understand. Those so-called hand, and son xielao. Long compartments tore Is my personal opinion.
I have been think maybe I really do not belong to the indifference of the world. But I'll live, but also very hard. Because I am not an orphan, I won't abandon their parents and selfish.
After hearing the woman complained again without a good man, I won't try to make a good man, just smile.

ca ni mama de big da B you mather shi is da SB wo hen xiang qu ri ni qin ai de mama

没有那个人可以看清世界的全貌，所以，每个观点都是片面的，环境不同，看法不同，做自己想做的人，何必在意别人，要让别人认同你才叫有本事！